The major problem is that the tenses are mixed up. In general, it should all be past tense. You can use present to refer to the past, same as Spanish, but it's less common in English and not really appropriate here.
Also: the constant use of "..." is a little strange and there are many places where a Capital letter should be used.
sayed -> said
as he gets older -> and that as he gets older
dementia -> fury, rage
a day -> one day
murdering -> killing
blame was -> blame was it
He saw petrified -> He was petrified to see
drink barrels -> not sure what this means. Beer kegs, maybe.
spot white -> white spot
caressing -> petting (caressing sounds sexual)
became -> came
repulsion -> revulsion
kindly -> kindness
solidity -> not sure what this means here
beauty home -> beautiful home